I used to cringe at the idea of meditating. My mom began meditating during my teen years, and since I had the mindset that whatever she believed was beneficial I was going to do the opposite, I decided meditation was for hippy dippy weirdos. Also, the mere idea of meditating made me extremely anxious. I felt like if I was told to sit in quiet for even 5 minutes, my mind would take over and I would combust. Then over time the more I read about finding fulfillment and peace, the more meditation came up as a necessary tool. So one day when I was having an anxious day, I called my mom and she happened to be on the way to a meditation class. She said, "why don't you meet me there and we can have lunch after." In my desperation I got in the car, and while in class, I sat with my eyes closed and cried the entire time. As someone who had difficulty letting go and letting the tears flow, I felt like a weight was lifted. I started attending the class weekly. Even though it still caused part of me anxiety to think about meditating, another part of me liked the idea of having quiet time set aside every week to sit with my thoughts and feelings. I began controlling my mind instead of my mind controlling me. Getting this control didn't come easy. My mind would say to me: "I don't want to sit still and do nothing for an hour,"or "I have a lot of work to do," or "this isn't helping me I still have no control." But the more I resisted going, the more I felt like making the commitment to go. Anything that was so simple to do, but scared me so much felt like it needed to be conquered. Over time, meditation felt good. My mind talked to me less and less. And the less my mind talked, the more control over my life I had. I thought that if I stopped listening to my mind, I would be less productive and centered, but the exact opposite occurred. Through meditation I found that I could focus for longer periods of time; tasks that felt difficult to start became easy to complete, and most of all the sense of fulfillment and peace I felt in my life grew to a magnitude that I could never imagine attaining.